Subsiding Smiles

I’m losing my sanity mom, do you still see me

These subsiding smiles are signs of bleeding

You’re not you anymore to regretting I am bound

I’m still lost mom, by you I have not been found

Slowly I can tell mom, you’re hurting deep inside

Laughing is all I’ve got to cover the tears I’ve cried

I think I am forgetting how it feels to show true joy

You used to make me stronger mom, and now you just destroy

You’re in the other room mom, sick out your head

I’m just in here thinking how I would be better off dead

I wish you took the time to look upon my eyes

Is that to much to ask mom? I just want you to hear my cries

Darkening my thoughts mom, to a point they should not reach

Lessons of a broken soul, but I’m missing you to teach

Living on this earth but going through a hell

No more future mom, only memories to tell

Hopefully you’ll change mom, back to what is you

I can’t stand the pressure, soon it will get through

All I want is for you to seethe place in my heart that died

Without you mom there’s nothing, that’s where my life subsides

Stormy