Broken

Hearing the betrayal with my own ears

Something inside broke leaving me in tears

Breaking down so fast I didn't see it coming

But I felt it tear through me, a bullet through my heart

Digressing into basics, not understanding

How a person that was sweet could leave me here standing

All alone not knowing what is up and down

Sitting on my knees I find myself falling

In a dark abyss I hear myself calling

But no one answers just the cold wind coming

Encircling me like a tornado, I find myself torn in pieces

The woman I became lost within herself

Repeating over and over “I’m not a bad girl”

Crawling into the fetal position I clutch myself

Trying to keep the pieces from falling to the floor

Crying till I hit somber I reach up to find a door

Opening it not beneficial for it leads somewhere else

Into the quiet of judgment where I can lay down

Dying slowly inside as each word bounces of these walls

Each one stabbing me deep as I bleed out on this mirror

A reflection of every sin I have ever committed

The mistakes of the past showing in repetition

Until I hear myself “I’m not a bad girl. I did nothing wrong” do I

Finally give up.

-Jay